New to dating!

Well, I have been divorced for two years now, but I am VERY new to dating.  I was married for 19 years, and thank God I had two beautiful, amazing kids!  I even have a precious granddaughter now!  Unfortunately, after being married that long, I gained quite a bit of weight.  I also completely lost myself.  I was only the "Mom", or the "Wife".  Who the heck am I?
Another unfortunate thing is that I took care of my kids most of the time, but I did little jobs on the side to make extra money.  Now that I'm divorced, (and 46 years old I might add) that doesn't look too good on a resume!  So, here I am, living in my Mother's basement.  No career, no job, and it doesn't look too good right now.  I know if I hang in there it will get better!  Thank God I have faith, or I don't know if I could've made it this far. 
As I'm sure you can tell, this is my very first blog post.  I promise they won't all be so depressing!  I am trying to journal my entire journey through this thing we call life.  So, I am only at the beginning...the "not so" fun stuff.  I hope to land a job soon, and I will have that to write about!  I also hope to start talking to the opposite sex.  Maybe as friends first.  God knows I don't need more chaos in my life right now! 
I have recently joined a local online dating site.  Let's just say I'm taking it VERY slow!  You never know who you are talking to, and I used to warn my daughter about this kind of stuff.  Who would have thought I would be on a dating site at my age! 
So....I hope to be a little more upbeat in the future.  Today has just been a "bad" day.  I appreciate you giving me your precious time!  Thank you so much for reading!!!
God bless & have a great day!

Dawn